We are quickly moving through this pregnancy... This week's post is a recap from week 20. That week was so emotional. I went back and forth over whether to find out the sex of our baby for months. Once I had made my decision, I couldn't go back. I was worried that someone would be disappointed because we all wanted something different. I know it's out of my hands, but that need to please and provide is something I can't turn off when it comes to my little family.
When it came to my Little Darling, I knew I didn't want to know whether she was male or female. I didn't want to have it in my mind any expectations or plans regarding how I'd raise her differently. I would teach her to cook, clean, and be nurturing. I would teach her to go camping, self defense, and how to make and manage her own money. I didn't want to think of a "little princess" when it came to a girl or .... whatever it is you think of when you are having a boy.
This time, though, I got emotional about things. First, I completely disregarded anything The Hubs wanted when I was pregnant with our Little Darling. I didn't even feel bad about it unfortunately, but I did want to make sure that, this time, he was heard and had a say in the matter. Of course, he wanted us to find out. The other factor was our Little Darling. I talked, very early on, about having a Gender Reveal party for her. I am sure she has no idea what that even means, but she knew that she would get a party.
This whole thing is so unexpected. We are all so excited and grateful for this chance to expand our family and I really want to involve everyone in decision making as much as possible. Emphasis on the "as much as possible". Because of my commitment to making this about FAMILY, I decided to feature our Little Darling for the first time on my blog. She really wanted a photo shoot so that she could share her news with people.
So there she is. My Little Darling. Big haired and Bright eyed. I will admit that I had to recreate things for this post. The box we used for our Little Darling was larger and she was able to unwrap it and balloons came out, disclosing whether she was having a brother or sister. The box we used on the night of the Gender Reveal party wasn't as decorative either.... Uhm, someone had a lot to do that day and sort of had a melt down while trying to take care of things. Uhm, that someone might have been me. So I kind of cried for a few hours and took a nap after burning cupcakes, ruining decorations, and not having supplies to make other things.
Cue: Heroic Hubs. He walked in with a huge box and pink balloons. We filled the box, scribbled "Guess Who!" on the front and rushed out the door to the party.
I won't say that The Hubs and I were disappointed about having another little girl. We aren't, but there is a part of us that really wanted to have a little boy. I was so sure it was a boy because this pregnancy has been 100% different from that with my Little Darling. No vomiting, very little nausea in general. I am growing faster than I did in my first pregnancy. Well, I was taught a lesson! You just never know! So we will be welcoming another precious baby girl into our family. I made our Little Darling her shirt, when we did our pregnancy announcements, which featured her in a series of photos. I thought it was only fitting that her little sister got a matching shirt.
The awesome thing is that our Little Darling prayed and prayed for a little sister. In the end, this Little Someone will be her best friend. They will grow up together and take care of one another. They will have this inseparable bond that no one will understand except for them. I cannot wait to watch that bond form and blossom. My younger sister and I have always been very close. We argue all the time, but that close bond we have is something that can never be shaken or broken. I love that. It's something truly special and it is something that I don't really share with my brothers. I am also incredibly relieved that I will have the fun of buying cute clothes for little girls. I hate to admit it, but I can always think of cute decorations, toys, projects, outfits and accessories for little girls. So it looks like my job as a crafty, DIY Mama just got easier!